I'm Waiting...

When God is Silent - we are to still worship & serve HIM!

This topic quote above was listed by this song when I looked it up.. I think I am going to throw up..
I can't stand those types of Christians who live to be excited about God 24/7.. I wish I was like that more..
I was driving to work this morning and the man who wrote this song was talking on the radio about waiting 17 years for God to bring him to a place where he could serve God with his music full time. He said he felt like he had a very firm grip on what it was like to wait on the lord..lol.. 17 years.. what a sissy.. Moses waited 40.. there are many more stories I could bore you with from the OT that would explain waiting, but when you are in the midst of doing it? it sucks dirt..
I have been waiting since July 23, 1988 for the hand of God to move in my life.. yep.. not seeing it so much.. I am a general foreman working in Construction now... totally where I thought I would be that season God called me. I walked for like a year or so in that season of my calling.. insanely excited about how God had called me to serve him and walk it out... I just knew it was my desire and for all this time it keeps haunting me like a bad dream that I can't get away from. I would LOVE for this cup to pass away from me..in fact I have begged God to take away this desire.. but..not so much.. He will not relent in this season of silence.. Its like he is there but he isn't. I can't explain that because there is no explanation..only the experience of such..if you can't experience something you can't understand it, most times..that's just the way of things..
So I am including this...theme song for you to understand my position because it speaks volumes, but while I lye awake tonight in my 3000 sq foot home on ten acres.. alone without the comfort of human connection or touch.. I will listen to this song in my head because its all that is going on.. waiting....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bb7TSGptd3Y